I'm just simply sitting here, nothing to do, no one to see. Bored out of my mind. No one stays on to rp with. People forget about me. People online that are guys are pigs. My life sucks right now. What the hell else am I suppose to do? My body made it already clear that it doesn't want to die and I can't even cut myself when I want to. I'm just weak spirited to let something like that get me down. I haven't been able to write stories or anything. I can't see some of the new anime there is out now unless I buy it. And I have to have a job to buy things. Yet I'm in the process and I doubt that I made it. If I did it would only be a miracle. I can't even make an amv on the account that my media maker is acting up where I can't see my own creation being worked and make it the best thing that I have ever had. It seems that I am what people look for as in personality wise and yet I'm already taken and my life feels like a shit hole. I want to have children, at least the thought has crossed my mind. But I'm not really ready. My life feels like an empty black hole. Even now worse to wake up and find out the fuck heads in Europe could have fuckin killed us in our sleep by trying to redo the stupid big bang theory which could have caused a black hole. Way to go fuck heads. Of course it still could kill us on the fact that it's running at full compatibility. Oh wow. If a 4 mile meteor doesn't fuckin kill us like it did to the dinosaurs then we will destory it early with a black hole. What a fuckin waste of a life we had. I don't want to dye without really seeing my life through. I'm having another dizzy spell while writing this. Aren't I special. Or it could be a slight stroke. Whoot I GET TO FUCKIN DYE ALREADY AT FUCKIN 21!!!!!!!!!!!